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up late to read or to do some paperwork for my firm, she will not go to bed alone, but will insist on staying with me until I accompany her. Consequently, I have virtua- lly no privacy or opportunity to do anything without her, even if I take a short drive to buy cigaretts, she will in- sist on coming.

Thus it is only about once every two months when she spends a weekend with her family in Sheffield that I can even write a letter (as now) without her knowledge.

Added to this any letters I receive she must read, and because of her sheckel counting in saving for a home, I can hardly spend a penny without her knowing.

This has, of course, led to many problems and some deep thinking on my part. Although I am very fond of her, and thought that I loved her, I am beginning to doubt that I can stand a lifetime with her. Anytime she does not get her way, even on the slightest request from me for privacy, scenes and tears quickly follow, "all I do for you, clean the flat, cook your meals, and this is all the thanks I get. You don't love me anymore." Sob, sob, sniffle, etc. Usually I have given in, just to get some peace. I believe that her possessiveness is beginning to border on neurosis, for it seems to get pro- gressively worse. Therefore, TV not entering the de- cision, it is probable that I shall not be able to stand the smothering and the tears any more and call off our arrangement. Perhaps you don't really know a person until you have lived with her (this might be argument in favor of trial marriages).

I hope you are not too bored with this long resume but because of the situation as it exists, I do not discuss TV, receive any mail which she might see, or even risk leaving anything on the subject in the flat where she may find it. For this reason I have arranged for a friend to hold any private correspondence.

So much for the background. On my previous at- temps to write you, I thought you wanted a biography and began to attempt a detailed explanation of my interest in TV, However, for the reasons previously given, along with the unexpected arrival of friends on the few occasions